Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Leaving on a Jet Plane

I absolutely love to travel. Who doesn't? You get to step away from your everyday life and spend some time, no matter how little or long, without the worries of the day to day.

That is exactly how I feel. My Mom was gracious enough to offer me a trip to Florida for 8 days to visit my sisters....alone! How could I pass that up? I made arrangements for the children and called Mom back and said "of course". Granted I did get a bit nervous, this being the first time I leave my two for such an extended period of time. Not that hubby can not handle them. He is an amazing father. But, a weekend trip is one thing, this one is for 8 days! He seemed confident, and I know I raised 2 very independent level headed individuals.

This trip is just what I need. For the past 7 years I have been a SAHM (Stay At Home Mom). Anything and everything I do is for the best interest of the kids. When the children are infants and toddlers, we tend to put our needs and interests on hold for their sake. When you do this day in and day out life begins to feel mundane. One day is no different than the next. But there comes the day when you discern, wow, these children are self-sufficient. Sure, they need Mom every now and then. But for the most part, they can feed, dress, and care for themselves. They are well mannered and behave the way they should in public. You can't help to look at them and smile thinking, "these two are well on their way to becoming respectable individuals". It is a wonderful feeling to recognize you are fulfilling your commitment to society successfully. That is when you realize it is time to start taking better care of "ME".

This trip is a gift to my soul. A celebration of all my accomplishments as a parent, thus far. But it will also be a time to dream about the new and exciting things that are in store for me in the near future.

Sunday, August 2, 2009


Birth of Venus - Alexander Cabanel

For several years I kept an online blog.

It captured my day to day activities and gave me an outlet....a way for me to disclose all the thoughts I had tinkering around in my mind. My blog made me happy. I shared my inner-most thoughts on my life. It was extremely liberating to be able to document the things that made me tick and have people who enjoyed my writing comment on it. All was well.

Unfortunately, that all came to an end last November. I started receiving hateful messages on my blog as well as my personal email address. Two commenters in particular felt that I was embellishing the truth. In their words, no one can possibly be that happy, all the time. I tried ignoring the comments. Even deleted them. But the posters wouldn't go away. It was due to these individuals that I decided I would take a break from blogging. I thought "perhaps writing about what makes me happy all the time needs a bit of a break?" In essence, they silenced me.

It has been 9 months since the last time I posted a blog entry. The past few months I have been itching to get back into blogging. I missed it terribly. So I began to reflect on my old blog. What was it about? It was about me. Was it cheery and positive? Yes. This is mainly because I am a positive individual. I choose to take on life as an optimistic. The glass is half full kind of gal. Do I ever feel blue? Of course I do. Who doesn't? But I make a conscious decision to not allow the negatives in life to bring me down. There are more sunny days than there are rainy in life. Why concentrate on the gloomy ones? Not that I quickly dismiss those stormy ones either. In fact, I embrace them. If it were not for them, we could not possibly learn to appreciate the bright picture perfect days. I live for the adages: "Every cloud has a silver lining" & "There is a rainbow after every storm." I truly believe in them.

Today I decided to take the plunge. I sat around for 9 long months and awaited the stirring in my soul to begin documenting life again. Life is beautiful. It is something to be celebrated. There are others who also love life and obtain joy from others positivity as well.

This new blog is my rebirth.....